It’s been nagging me for years since I came back. That feeling I left something of myself behind.
Because when I go back I feel so alive and I feel myself. Why is that? I could never figure it out.
But today during my session with the psychologist, it came out that perhaps I left a part of myself there, the part of myself I actually like.
So when I’m back there I’m whole again, when I leave I’m not.
If I’m not whole and the part of myself that I like and truly want to be is not here then what is it that came back?
Could it be that my shadow came back and forgot it was a shadow and just took my place? Meanwhile my true self is over there infinitely walking home from the station on a still autumn night in awe of everything around him not realising what has happened.
How do I make myself whole again?